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One Month Of Boring Old Consistency And My Game Changing Results Pt.1

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One Month Of Boring Old Consistency And My Game Changing Results Pt.1

Changing the outcome of my business the boring but seriously rewarding way šŸ‘Š

Ellen "Jelly" McRae
Aug 2, 2022
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One Month Of Boring Old Consistency And My Game Changing Results Pt.1

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Hello! This post is from the šŸ’Ž VIP exclusive content, HighwayšŸ’Ž And, as always, Ellen ā€œJellyā€ McRae, the writer/solopreneur/content creator sharing my experiences working from home, the extensive business process and journey, and managing a work-life balance as I start and grow a business.


Finally, things are changing for the better!

I hate the word excited because everyone says how excited they are on social media, all the time, the word has lost its meaning. But I’m too freakin’ excited to care!

It’s been a long time since I’ve had a good month in my business. And by good month, I mean:

  • A long stretch of time (even a month) where I completed everything on my to-do list

  • A stretch of time where I felt like I was progressing towards my goals

  • A stretch of time where I felt proud of what I was doing, and felt like I could say how well I was doing, instead of lying and saying I was happy with my business

As you can tell, I’ve had a good month. A great month. An amazing month! And with the launch of 1 Lovelock Drive, I feel like everything I’ve been working towards is coming together.

I was talking to my husband about my month and he pointed out how well I had done, especially two weeks ago when we were having friends over for dinner. We didn’t know our friends were coming until the night before. And everything needed doing. Food shopping, house cleaning, cooking, you name it. To get everything done, I had to ditch work.

For the past few years, when this would happen, I would stress for the whole day. How would I catch up? I was already behind, anyway, and this was another way the world was out to sabotage me.

Yes, it was the world making sure I wasn’t going anywhere with my career, not me. So delusional.

But this time, when I had to ditch work, zero stress. Zero concerns. In fact, I didn’t even think twice about it.

Hubby said to me that it was a relief to see me calm and collected in the situation.

I had it all. I was kicking goals and managing a harmonious work-life balance. That was the moment when I realised everything I was doing was working. And that I really could have it all if I kept going.

In the spirit of my honesty here on Highway, I’m going to share exactly what happened to get me to where I am now:

  • Every facet of my business growing

  • Managing my work-life balance perfectly (yes, I’m going with perfect because I am nailing it!)

  • I can now add to my routine without everything falling apart, which means big new projects are on the horizon sooner than I thought

I hate admitting to this; I was in a bad place

One day I might talk more about what has happened over the last three years in my personal life, and the health battles that have plagued my family. But today isn’t the day.

What I can say is that due to my intense personal life, my business hasn’t been what I want it to be. Nor has been something I’ve been immensely proud of, and sometimes, a concept I want to keep developing.

The final straw for my business success came recently when I became sick for a whole month. Covid and then the flu. It sucked. My business almost turned to dust. I had no energy, focus or ability to write, let alone put together outstanding new content every single day.

I had already taken two months off work earlier in the year to move and have a holiday (which ended up being cancelled anyway) so I couldn’t afford another day off.

I was lost. I hated my situation, I was blaming circumstances for the hole I was in, and I continued to blame the world for my inability to climb out of the hole once I found myself in it.

You could say I should have seen it coming. Everything was suffering. But sometimes you don’t know you’re losing your way until you’re lost.

I was sick of my situation, sick of failing, sick of not having enough success to even pay myself properly or take time off without extreme guilt. Or consequences.

This was my low point. But it was also my starting point.

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